| Abstract | Rad Sustanari bavi se iracionalnim mislima, posebice onim izazvanim socijalnom anksioznošću te pritiskom suvremenog kapitalističkog društva. Te su misli bile amplificirane prilikom boravka u novoj, stranoj okolini tijekom studentskih razmjena gdje sam osjećala da se ne uklapam, a svoj osjećaj vrijednosti pokušavala sam izjednačiti s produktivnošću. Negativne misli uvijek su bile uz mene, kao stalni sustanari mojeg uma. Kroz rad Sustanari borim se s takvim mislima, dajući svakoj od njih trodimenzionalnu formu i dozu antropomorfnosti. Promišljanjem o iracionalnim mislima kao likovima odvojenim od mojeg suštinskog Ja, shvaćam da nemaju nikakve zle namjere, već me čine obzirnijom prema drugima, paze kako se prezentiram i guraju me naprijed u vlastitom umjetničkom stvaralaštvu. I same su zbunjene, kao i ja, s mjerom u kojoj bih se trebala zamarati tuđim pogledom na sebe. Svaki lik-misao opisan je kroz svoj izgled, dimenziju, materijal i odgovarajuću prostoriju-dioramu. Te raznolike organične prostorije tvore moj unutarnji krajolik, mentalni prostor, kaotičnu kuću u kojoj svi zajedno boravimo. Moje misli — moji sustanari i ja — čangrizavi stanodavac. |
| Abstract (english) | The work “Housemates” deals with irrational thoughts, especially those triggered by social anxiety and the pressures of contemporary capitalist society. These thoughts were amplified during my stay in a new, foreign environment during my Erasmus exchanges, where I felt like I didn’t fit in, and I tried to equate my sense of worth with productivity. Such negative thoughts have always been with me, like permanent housemates of my mind. Through the work “Housemates”, I confront these thoughts by giving each of them a three-dimensional form and a degree of anthropomorphism. By contemplating irrational thoughts as characters separate from my essential self, I realize that they have no malicious intentions; rather, they make me more considerate towards others, mindful of how I present myself and push me forward in my own artistic creation. They themselves are confused, just like me, about the extent to which I should be concerned with others’ perceptions of me. Each thought-character is described through its appearance, dimension, material, and an appropriate room-diorama, as well as through a residence permit document. These diverse organic rooms form my internal landscape, my mental space, a chaotic house where we all reside together. My thoughts — my housemates, and I — the grumpy landlord. |
